Tip of the Tongue

Tip of the Tongue

Monday, 24 February 2014

Helsinki Part 4: Why so serious?

I reckon I just about have enough time before my 10AM to let you guys know what's been going on in Helsinki the few weeks. (I didn't).
The most important is that, from The University's point of view, my first exam is looming. In fact, it's a week on Wednesday - holy ****. I'm reading and taking notes each day on my book and so hopefully it shouldn't be too bad but when you are faced with a 4 hour exam period it can be quite daunting!
Apart from the nerves surrounding the exam I have otherwise been keeping up with my work and enjoying it; which is crazy, although important given a disappointing set of results from last semester.

Lots more has been happening away from the University though, as you'd expect.
A group of us here in res (residence) have been cooking traditional meals for one another, often followed by a GoT sessions before the 4th series comes out! So far we have had Czech and Polish, both were gorgeous and completely different to anything you'd get in the UK. They both involved a soft dough with filling which was then boiled - effectively a dumpling but in different styles. We have a Dutch meal to come this week and then German, Swiss and British. I think I'm rounding off the Come Dine With Me-esque dinners and so shall be putting in my best efforts...although in a room which consists more of bed than any other type of furniture.

I have also been ice fishing, obviously. Two people (man & woman, although unsure as to whether they're a couple) allow anyone to come along and use their ice fishing equipment for free every Friday. The fish are not large, when filleted (or fillayed if you're pronouncing it like an American!? I may have chuckled and teased about this) the size was probably close to that of a thumbnail. I did catch 3 though! and Ohio (or Danny as she is actually named but we have 3 so it's good to differentiate) caught 2, maybe a career in the making? I doubt it.

What has struck me recently though is how much I love the cafe culture here in Helsinki. Almost round every corner you will find an independent coffee shop, there is only one chain (Robert's) which is really successful and only one Starbucks - which I am refusing to go in. Some of these cafes can be expensive but generally they are on a par with what you'd find in Costas and Bucks and safe to say they are so much better, especially as many give you a free chocolate with your latte. If you follow me on Twitter you may know that in each coffee shop I am writing a sonnet, aptly hash-tagged as #CoffeeSonnets. Hopefully by the end of my stay here I shall have a sequence that is somewhere around the 40 mark, each time I write I find new inspiration and it is becoming easier to play with words and to get the sound I want. Who knows whether they are any good but I am enjoying writing them and they are making me explore the city too.

HKI+ one of the many coffee shops in Helsinki, although this one has only two tables and a 1€ discount for students!


The MASSIVE cinnamon rolls from Cafe Esplanad and yes I did eat it all to myself.

What has come from this is that I now have a craving to own my own cafe in Nottingham. There isn't really a great many cute cafes around and I feel that what I have in my head would be perfect for the area, especially for students. It is probably a dream of mice and men and I should probably concentrate on the degree and a secure job but right now I am allowing myself to dream and it does get me excited when I think about it.

Planning for travelling is taking more shape now too. It isn't long before I head up to Lapland - a post exam celebration - and I think I will be travelling to St. Petersburg in April before my terminal exams. At the moment my mum is coming in the first 10 days of May, which may mean she has to go about on her own for a bit as I may have two exams in that time! After this there is opportunity to go to one more country before I head round Europe on my inter-railing adventure. If any of you guys know somewhere that I must check out please let me know.

The weather at the moment is rather uninteresting, a warm 2 degrees seems to be the standard at the moment and so it's very almost time to get my British tan on. What it does mean though is that going out to a club does not involve being wrapped up in 6 layers before shedding them at the compulsory coat check to the annoyance of all the Finns that watch on at the foreigner. My attempts at learning the language so far have been dismal, when surrounded by English speaking people as it is the most common mutually intelligible language and when studying in English it becomes difficult to pick up such an odd language. Instead I am making efforts at re-acquainting myself with French but I think I need to put in a bit more time before it'll be worth it!

So as it is, Helsinki is great. It keeps providing opportunities to go out and see/do new things (like Restaurant day, where we were welcomed by a couple of artists who opened their home to anyone and everyone. I had lime and cardamon ice cream...it was incredible). The weather isn't horrid and neither are my lectures. Everyone here continues to be brilliant and beautiful and what I think is making it such a worthwhile experience is that it has inspired me to write.


My little book of poetry. 

Restaurant Day; some artists opened their flat for anyone to come and buy their food, Rosemary ice tea is definitely a thing.

Friday, 21 February 2014

Haiku 7

My hands smell of smoke,
The wood fire warmed us, our souls
Ignited by flame.

Thursday, 20 February 2014

The Sauna

The hot steam burning the back of my ears,
Silence echoing in the hall of sweat.
Eye contact? An unsurity in each,
You can't look down
But look up and you betray your awkwardity.
Close your eyes and let the ground drown,
In the sea of men.

Haiku 6

Winter surrounds me, 
Its cold breath runs down my spine.
Spring, Fall, Summer lie.

Monday, 17 February 2014

Sonnet 1

O, my sterile unceasing love I go,
Although many will say the same of you.
Through you I go, through and through to and fro,
I hear your groaning cease and then you flew.
You take me so, to where I wish to be
But you traffik yourself to the masses.
It hurts no more, from your tunnels to flee,
You taste so bitter, dark like molasses.
Yet you are but the underground Metro,
What can I expect of you otherwise?
Screams and moans denote that you're far from slow
This was just to show what you can disguise.
So often it is the reverse for these,
Sex hidden by mundanity to please.

Haiku 5

Sweet child not o' mine.
Your wails and cries, no avail.
O' please, shut up.

Sunday, 16 February 2014

I Cannot See Through The Glass

My room has no walls,
Only those that confine me.
My room has no windows,
Not even ones that let me see.

This room is an empty shell.
Never a house but not a home.
Flat; pulse, home or both?
Tranquil hell. So much space.

Saturday, 15 February 2014

Haiku 4

Innocent baby,
Hair so soft and eyes alive.
Oh! You  make us swoon.

Friday, 14 February 2014

Haiku 3

Love? Lost abroad, here
Friendship has more value
Today. In Finland.

Thursday, 13 February 2014

Haiku 2

Coffee at my place.
No view through condensation.
No view anyway.

Wednesday, 12 February 2014

Haiku 1

As winter passes,
Nature's fellow offspring flows.
Split, so it can grow.

Friday, 7 February 2014

At War

Half mast.
Swords sheathed and
Shields at the ready.
Soldiers must perform and
Those who shan't shall
Be left wanting.
Propping up the wounded and
Battling on throughout.
Your legs left quaking,
Shell shock. 

Tuesday, 4 February 2014

Helsinki: Part 3

As I haven't written in a while this shall be full of lots of things! Aren't you excited already?

We headed over to Tallinn once more, this time with my tutor group rather than people I've met where I'm staying. We only had a few hours over there and so I didn't head to the Old Town for more than 20 minutes at the end of the day. I stocked up on alcohol once more and also found a coat from Zara for 69€ which is like the £159 one I found in Nottingham...I obviously bought it. It's beautiful.

I've been making a lot of bread over the last week or so, it seems to be appreciated and people are willing tasters when I try something different (bacon and mushroom bread...delicious! Although my dough was a bit heavy as I had been guessing weights). Hopefully I'll acquire a bread tin soon and then I can make some actual loaf looking loaves and experiment a bit more.

As for academia, my Learning Agreement has been signed and sent off so all that is done! Erasmus grant should now be pending. I have also sent my Nottingham Essays back and now only have an essay in lieu of exam to complete, which I shall sit down to sometime this month. I have an exam in a month on Postcolonial literature, currently I have no idea how the exam is structured which is a bit disconcerting but I shall get in touch with the professor and see how much he can divulge. Lecture diaries have started for my Finnish Literature course and we must have an essay abstract by the end of this month so I need to start getting my thinking cap on. I also have to create a presentation with 2 others on a crime novel for next week so reading shall be intensive this week. As for the thinking cap - it has already been stretched by my Grammar module which you would think would come easily to an English student but it is something with which I am not wholly confident. I don't think many people back home would be actually, it's just something we have never truly looked at. Hopefully it will mean my analysis of texts will help and also improve my essay writing but who knows.

Enough of work though! Quite a number of us went out to Espoo and checked out Red Bull's Crashed Ice event, which is like BMX Cross in the Olympics or Snowboarder Cross, where 4 competitors skate down a tight winding track - rather aggressively at times. I wasn't sure what to expect but I felt like it wasn't 'pumped' up enough, especially considering they had their own DJ but we had a good time and got some great photos. And thank goodness as it took us 2 hours to get there...this is very odd however as it only took 25 to get back (not counting the time spent 'queueing', which was more like a mosh pit for Iron Maiden). Oh well.
I have also booked my Lapland trip, where I shall get to see the northern lights (I hope & pray)! I will also be husky sledding and taking part in a survival course...which may well be needed because I haven't really got clothes for the weather we'll be expecting.

A group of us also went to Turku, which was the old capital of Finland before the Russians moved it so it was closer to them than the Swedes. It was a pretty poor day weather wise and although the city was pretty there wasn't as much beauty in the architecture as we've seen other where. I did get to go to the Sibelius museum though. It was a very well put together museum and unfortunately we weren't there on a Wednesday where they put on live performances in their auditorium space. They have a great collection of musical instruments - from the very old to the new - and the specific space for Sibelius was lovingly put together with very well chosen quotes. Maybe more important for the student however was a recipe for quite an alcoholic punch.

The weather today has become negatively British. Dull. Damp. Nondescript temperature. I want it to be -8 and clear blue skies as it has been. Not this horribly warm 1 degree. I shall live in hope although I think the days are now getting longer and warmer...which isn't saying much considering the days were about 5 hours long when I got here.

In other news I have a friend who gets through a toothbrush a week. I thought people may appreciate the oddness of this. Sorry Daniel...but what do you do to your teeth!?






My favourite photo from Turku


Walking across the water to some islands!

Fazer chocolate is delicious and this is the family's coffee shop. Everything in their looks incredible.


Harpsichord you are able to play at the Sibelius Museum

My first, quick, sketch in Finland. The Sleeping Kiwi

Bacon and Mushroom bread...tastes great but you can see the dough is too heavy

This is the petrol station round the corner. That snow is compacted and still an inch thick in places. They just do not grit in this place and if they do it's with gravel so that just gets frozen into all the snow and is useless!